However, through that comes LOADS of questions.
What is my biggest fear?
My biggest fear is growing too close of a bond with the kids and then having to leave. I know it will be hard for me but I am more worried for the kids. Half of them are orphans, so they don't need anyone else walking out of their life.
What will be the most difficult thing for me?
The most difficult thing for me, besides the fact that I will have to come home without putting all of the children in my suitcase to come home with me.... is the language. I am used to being able to say what is on my mind, and talk freely. This will be a reality change for me. It will be hard not to be able to tell the kids all that I want.
How will I change?
It's hard to say at this point in time... but I would have to say I will be much more appreciative. Coming from a very close family, with many opportunities, I will learn to appreciate things more. I will not take time with my mom, dad, sister, or any family members for granted because a lot of the children we will be working with will never see their families again.
This AMAZING trip is and will be a very frightening trip... leaving your home, your family, and just the familiarness that surrounds you in your daily lives will be a reality change. Going to a country halfway across the world that you have never been there before will also be scary.
Dalai Lama once said...
“If you have fear of some pain or suffering, you should examine whether there is anything you can do about it. If you can, there is no need to worry about it; if you cannot do anything, then also there is no need to worry.”
We shouldn't keep focusing and stressing over the things that scare us, because there is really no need to worry about it.
Asante sana!
~Sophia
